The Persistence of Memories

                                                        The Persistence of Memories


Brain is a complex system.
Sometimes, it would take us back to the past.
Sometimes, the future. A world that someday would called mine. Life there will be great.
We can dream to be the leader, to be rich, to be healthy and to be happy.
It can also destruct us with the memories that we longed to forget. Memories that made us wish upon a star that we are able to turn back time. Turn back time to make it alright.
The truth is the memories haunt me.

Everything happens for a reason.
This is due to the way people think differently, have a completely different faith and belief. The way people used to behave and act at certain age.
Reality is indeed cruel. We can never go back no matter how much we wanted too. Once decision had been made, it's best to swallow it no matter how bitter it was because there are no U-turn. Even if the decision is made by the person itself.
If i could turn back time, i would have explain it all to you.
How naive i was, how afraid i was, how undecided i was.

But maybe it's best to keep safe and locked you away.

The Secret by Rhonda Byrne

  I heard that this book was awesome and had been recommended by some of my friends.
I ran my fingers through them, understanding the concept of 'Like attracts like'. For example, when you think you can do it, then you will because the positive energy will bring the positive outcome. True to what it said. For some.
But when you look again at another point of view, do you think overweight people love to be fat? Do they attracts this energy to become fat? Me, myself love food so much, and honestly, i am gaining some weight, but i don't think i am going to be fat. But the weighing machine told me otherwise.
Then, what about the victims during the natural disaster? Does they attracts them too?
I personally don't think so.
I believe that Luck still play a role in our life. Minor probably. But for me, luck definitely play a major role. If i had the luck, i would be striking 3D and instantly become a millionaire by now. Or me getting the oversea JPA scholarship. But none of this is happening. So is this my luck or because i am not attracting them hard enough?
What do you think?

Have you ever wonder what life is about?

Sometimes, most of us took time for granted. We too, took life for granted.
Do we actually thought of our death? ( basically i do not, till it hit me thro my head )
Do we actually realised that one day ,the person we loved might just leave us and we will never had the chance to say goodbye?
And sometimes in life, we took them for granted too.
How many of us, actually do not fight with or angry with our parents before?
I guessed all of us did. We stand up and fight for our-so-called rights that we all forgotten it was them who brought us up, forgave us when we did something wrong and support us in our darkest time. They never gave up hope upon us. But why do children nowadays gave up hope for their parents? Have we all forgotten where is our root?

What about relationship and friendship?
Sometimes we fight over silly things. Was it worth it? What if you fight with your bestie/partner today, and tomorrow they're gone? and you can never had the chance to patch up with them. Grief,misery,regrets.

All i was just trying to say was, life is too short for all of this.
Maybe we should start cherishing people around us.
And tell them how much we loved them before its too late.
Live today like it's the last day of your life.
Life is fragile and so are we.
That's what i'm going to do =)

Welcome 2011

Happy New Year peeps.
I just had the best new year ever.
Thanks to that someone special.
It's been awhile we don't have a moment for just both of us.
But i'm so happy that we finally had a chance to make a tick to one of our holiday-plans, which was to cook together. What's even better, it's a sudden plan and it came out from nowhere, and we just had to use what we had found in my fridge to make the 'miracle' spagetti. And we did it! I'm so proud and so super happy. It's super finger-licking good and i enjoyed every single moments of it. Thanks =)

My new year resolutions?
I made one just now. Only me and you know what it is. Hehe.

My other new year resolutions?
1. Being grateful of what i had.
2. Being a better person
3. Stop wasting time
4. Have a balance life.

What's yours?

30th December 2010, 0402 hours

I know time is limited for us now. I cannot be sad because i knew you would too. I won't cry so you don't have to worry about me. I know how much you hate to see me in tears. And i know deep in your heart, you're sad too. I'll wave goodbye in a smilling face, i swear i won't drop a single tear.
Thanks for everything.
I know i'm not a perfect girlfriend.
Sometimes i know, my attitude sucks,
Sometimes i know, i had my temper too,
Sometimes i know, i won't have the kind heart you owned.
Despite it all, you still loved me truly deeply madly.
I'm enchanted by everything you do.
The way you looked into my eyes,
The way you acted innocent,
The way you held me and kissed me.
I knew i won't be wrong
I knew you're the one

Top Five Moments I'll Missed

1. The moment you told me your regrets and fears.
Remember in the car, you asked me how can it all falls apart. Maybe people grows up and have a completely different world from ours. Like well said, people comes and leave. Maybe you still could do something about it. Do in now and have no regrets. Have self-confidence too kay. In my eye, you'll always be the best.
Honey, believe in yourself. I believe in you =) Will always support you in everything you do.

2. The picture of mum, grandpa and Vivien in the kitchen
Mum is preparing my favourite dessert. Grandpa walked in, and was about to take a fried banana to feed it to the house dog, Becky. At the same moment, Vivien and mum shouted at grandpa saying that he shouldn't feed Becky till so fat.Haha, Grandpa kinda put the fried banana back into the container. When Vivien and mum wasn't looking, Grandpa again with his mission and he susceed. I was there looking, not mentioning any words and found this moment hilarious.

3.  The picture of siblings and bfs playing CS and Halflife together.
 I will always cherish this moment because how often do we get together and have fun? It is this moment where laughters been spread. Mum and Dad then came back home, i think they felt happy too to see that we had this great siblings bonding. Haha..which is 'killing each other ' xD

4. The picture of my friends going Ga-ga.
Once everyone got back in Taiping, i honestly can said that the music never stops. Everyday got its own activities. So once you're in Taiping, everyday will be a busy day. We either go for a movie, having party, gossiping till late at night, having slumber party, movie at Tee Xin's house, yamcha, held a girl's night out, CS outing ,arrange travelling for shopping or hunting for food and etc. My girls are full of drama =) and i loved them to bits =D

5. The sight of my crazy sister, Vivien
Haha, she makes me laugh alot. From her driving lessons to the maid stories. She's kinda like my storyteller, informing almost everything when i'm not home . She always do some stupid things and eats alot..Aww, my sweet sister.

Well, sem break is almost gone. There is a mixture of sadness and happiness. Happy to see my friends again, sad to be apart from the people i loved..
Distance makes the heart grow fonder.

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas everyone.
My Christmas eve's night is simple and nice.
Maybe this is because we had BBQ party and slumber party the other last night.Pictures to upload soon or might not
My voice haven't really recover yet, so i'm using my 'sexy' voice, so beware sexy-voice-sucker xD
Haha, hope to recover soon cos class is starting on 3rd Jan.
Lastly but not least
Have a Merry Christmas.